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  • #76
    Originally posted by Buckeye13 View Post
    Yoyoyo....


    Just hopped on real quick to update my drop to .25mgs yesterday..

    All went well, even about 6.5 hours of sleep...


    Today has been a bit rougher, but day 2 after the drop always seems to be worse for me for some reason...

    Thanks for the support Swayze...

    Gotta run...

    -Buck
    You are doing a great job Buck with your taper. If your not comfortable tomorrow at .25 you can always add one of the .125 that you already have cut up. Even if you had to do this and stay there at.37 for 3 or 4 days it just means you would be jumping 3 or 4 days later then planned. Remember its not a race to the finish line. Hopefully you wwill be fine tomorrow at .25. Just my thought Buck as im rooting for you.

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    • #77
      Buck, hi!!! Thank you sooo much for the info on your taper. I am trying to do the same thing...almost. My dose is too high; of that i'm pretty certain. I would like to get it down to as low a dose as possible and still keep the cravings and withdrawals at bay. I am in recovery from a monstrous opiate and benzo addiction, and have been on 16mg a day for almost 3 months.My problem, aside from trying not to turn back into a needle junkie again, is that I have been feeling as if I were in withdrawals...cold sweats, awful sweating, "spiders" crawling all over my skin...after reading some posts here, I came to believe that it may be because my dose is actually too high?! that's hard for me to grasp becaust the addict in me always believes more is better, but I still feel like ????!!! Could you offer me some advice on how to get my dose down to a "normal" level? and maybe how to do so with the least amount of sickness possible? I have to be able to function and work a high-stress, fast-paced 40+ hours a week. Anything you could offer for advice would be GREATLY appreciated. Thanx, Bree.

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      • #78
        Originally posted by breezybaby View Post
        Buck, hi!!! Thank you sooo much for the info on your taper. I am trying to do the same thing...almost. My dose is too high; of that i'm pretty certain. I would like to get it down to as low a dose as possible and still keep the cravings and withdrawals at bay. I am in recovery from a monstrous opiate and benzo addiction, and have been on 16mg a day for almost 3 months.My problem, aside from trying not to turn back into a needle junkie again, is that I have been feeling as if I were in withdrawals...cold sweats, awful sweating, "spiders" crawling all over my skin...after reading some posts here, I came to believe that it may be because my dose is actually too high?! that's hard for me to grasp becaust the addict in me always believes more is better, but I still feel like ????!!! Could you offer me some advice on how to get my dose down to a "normal" level? and maybe how to do so with the least amount of sickness possible? I have to be able to function and work a high-stress, fast-paced 40+ hours a week. Anything you could offer for advice would be GREATLY appreciated. Thanx, Bree.
        hi Bree....i read ur other post in the "need to talk" section on the thread of the member "Zakkanonymous". if u can find ur way back there i gave u the link to the sub therapy plan, and told u what i thought u should be doing regarding the sub. yes, ur on way too high of a dose and need to reduce it immediately. go back to that thread and we'll go from there.

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        • #79
          Welcome to the site Breezy...

          I'll try to catch up with you when I get back to work tomorrow...

          You're in good hands here...


          -Buck

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          • #80
            Originally posted by Buckeye13 View Post
            Yoyoyo....


            Just hopped on real quick to update my drop to .25mgs yesterday..

            All went well, even about 6.5 hours of sleep...


            Today has been a bit rougher, but day 2 after the drop always seems to be worse for me for some reason...

            Thanks for the support Swayze...

            Gotta run...

            -Buck
            When I posted this yesterday, I was on the verge of taking another dose. I hopped on here because I needed to, for some reason.

            After I posted this, I put the .125mg dose away and instead asked my 2 year old boy if he wanted to go outside and build a snowman. Going out and being active made a huge difference.

            I didn't take that dose, and I still haven't had a dose since then...

            I'll take my .25mgs in an hour or 2 and call it a day...

            I think I might have to stay at these lower doses for a few extra days, but that's fine...

            The finish line is coming. I'm starting to get pumped..


            -Buck

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            • #81
              Well, back to work and all is well...

              I stayed up too late last night watching Alabama murder Notre Dame, but oh well...Hopefully next year I'm watching the Buckeyes play in the NCG..

              I am getting ready to take my .25mg dose and that will be all for today..

              I think I'm going to stay at .25mgs for a few extra days, and then drop to .125mgs for a few days and then jump/skip...

              I can't believe how I've fought through every obstacle so far and just pushed through...

              My only major "detox" or withdrawals came in the first week of the taper when I went from 32mgs a day to 4mgs a day...

              I was sweating out of every pore in my body and I had rain water back and swamp azz along with head pressure, etc...you guys know what I'm sayin'...

              Those sytoms are so 2012 though as I now only had lethargy and a few body aches that are natural that I didn't feel for years so my body isn't used to it yet...

              These are minor things that Swayze put in good words..."nothing that tylenol and a pacifier won't take care of" (paraphrased)

              I'm just waiting for my body strength to catch up with my mind/mental strength....

              I have extreme will power and the right frame of mind to conquer this, so it will be, sub free...


              -Buck


              #OneDayAtATime

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              • #82
                Well...today is a good day...not all days are good...

                Boy, I feel really good this morning, clear headed, alert, awake, etc...

                I think I'm going to take a .125mg dose in the early day today and then take another .125mg dose later on today...

                That should help me prepare for my drop to .125mgs in the next day or two...

                I seem to hit the wall at about 2:00-3:00 in the afternoon everyday. But this will pass as my body is not used to having to push through the work day without help from Subs...

                Hopefully today stays good. I'm getting closer and closer to making the jump everyday, but there is still work to be done...

                -Buck

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                • #83
                  hi Buck....just checking on u to see how ur doing and it's looks like it's going very well for ya. i'm very happy to hear that. keep doing what ur doing and let us know if u have any issues at all. got to run as work is calling. been very busy lately, but that's always a good thing for me. talk to u later Buck and keep that great day going!

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                  • #84
                    Good for you Buck!!!
                    THings DO get better I Promise!!!! Hang in there and im Glad your having a Good Day!!!!!!!!!
                    Harry

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                    • #85
                      Originally posted by HarrySmooth View Post
                      Good for you Buck!!!
                      THings DO get better I Promise!!!! Hang in there and im Glad your having a Good Day!!!!!!!!!
                      Harry
                      It's funny I posted just an hour ago about how good I was feeling today, now I'm already starting to get the watery eyes and yawns, but that's nothing compared to the way I felt a month ago...

                      Every day really does get better. This is awesome..

                      At this point, nothing will stop me from finishing...

                      My huge Sub half-life build up should basically be gone, so now I just have to slowly get used to my new normal, which is life without an assist from a substance that I never should've started taking..

                      As I've stated before, I have never had any body pain, I am healthy, young (30), and I still somehow got hooked on pain meds and then Subs for close to 10 years...

                      Stupid stupid, but all I can do now is make it right by myself, and make it right with anybody and everybody that this has effected in my life..

                      I havn't been the husband I should be..
                      I havn't been the father I should be..
                      I havn't been the brother I should be..
                      I havn't been the son I should be..
                      I havn't been the employee that I should be..
                      I havn't been the friend I should be..
                      I havn't been the neighbor I should be..
                      I havn't been myself that I should be..


                      This is all changing for the better though, and I'm getting really excited about that. I actually cried listening to a friggin country song the other day. Embarrassing I know, but I'm actually proud of that because I seriously don't think I had cried for over 10 years. I had very little emotions when it came to anything not Sub related. Pathetic..


                      -Buck

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                      • #86
                        Hey, bro. I know I haven't posted on your thread in a minute, but it isn't because I haven't been keeping up with ya. I've been checking in, and reading all your posts. I've just been having a hard time mustering up the energy to actually write. I'm here for ya, man. I'm not going anywhere (unless my girl kicks me out). We're doing this thing, bro! You've been doing really good with your taper I see. Props, bro. I'm right there with ya on some of your ailments. Tapering off so quickly is starting to take it's toll on me. All in all tho, it seems like things could be a lot worse for ya...I mean, things could always be worse, right? lol. You're doing great, man. Keep it up! Catch you on the flip flop, brother. Peace. ep

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                        • #87
                          Originally posted by EgoPunch View Post
                          Hey, bro. I know I haven't posted on your thread in a minute, but it isn't because I haven't been keeping up with ya. I've been checking in, and reading all your posts. I've just been having a hard time mustering up the energy to actually write. I'm here for ya, man. I'm not going anywhere (unless my girl kicks me out). We're doing this thing, bro! You've been doing really good with your taper I see. Props, bro. I'm right there with ya on some of your ailments. Tapering off so quickly is starting to take it's toll on me. All in all tho, it seems like things could be a lot worse for ya...I mean, things could always be worse, right? lol. You're doing great, man. Keep it up! Catch you on the flip flop, brother. Peace. ep
                          Thanks Swayze...

                          In some ways I think having my wife not know about this is helping me through this...

                          I have to stay strong all the time, and fight from wake up to bed time...

                          I can't sit around at home after a long day of work and feeling sorry for myself...

                          I don't have a wife that is aiding me through my detox, therefor enabling me to be a sissy...

                          With her in the dark, I have to put on a front that everything is normal, therefor keeping me mentally sharp and motivated...

                          With all that said, I'm tired of living a secret life from her. I can't wait to be done with this so I can not only feel better, but I'll also be able to be myself at home, instead of putting on a front 24/7...

                          Any of that make sense?


                          -Buck

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                          • #88
                            It do. It do. I have a question though...will you ever tell her about this? Will she ever know what you went through to better yourself, so that you could be a better husband for her, and a better father? Will she ever know how strong of a man she has? Just curious. And yeah, having someone there to baby you instigates weakness, but it can also come in handy sometimes when you start thinking about using again. Nice to have someone there to slap your face when you need it. lol. It doesn't look as though you'll be encountering that issue tho. You're doing really well. Jumping is going to be tough tho, bro. Prepare yourself for it, but take it one day at a time. I shouldn't have even brought it up actually. You should just deal with things as they come. It's all i've been able to think about however. Everyday now, I wake up with pressure in my head, and the pain never quite goes away throughout the entire day. It's starting to get harder to fall asleep, and I feel like i'm getting the flu...feeling achy, cold, starting to sweat a lot. It's not that bad tho. It's manageable. I'm just used to feeling much different than that, ya know? lol. Anyway, mane...gonna go make a post on me own thread I suppose. You need a laugh, let me know. I'm just around the corner. ep

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                            • #89
                              Oh boy..

                              Rough day today, as far as energy...

                              I was up from about 2:00-4:00 kicking the sheets and then my 1 year old wanted to get up at 6:15 and play..

                              I turned on one of the Chipmunk movies and hoped she'd sit on my lap and watch it as I tried to get a few more Zs on the couch. Didn't work..

                              I'll hop back on here later when I get some more motivation to type..

                              Buck
                              Last edited by Anonymous; 01-10-2013, 11:57 AM.

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                              • #90
                                Originally posted by Buckeye13 View Post
                                Oh boy..

                                Rough day today, as far as energy...

                                I was up from about 2:00-4:00 kicking the sheets and then my 1 year old wanted to get up at 6:15 and play..

                                I turned on one of the Chipmunk movies and hoped she'd sit on my lap and watch it as I tried to get a few more Zs on the couch. Didn't work..

                                I'll hop back on here later when I get some more motivation to type..

                                Buck
                                motivation...where do you buy that??

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