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  • Originally posted by Buckeye13 View Post
    I just read this part of your post because I was in a rush to respond to you in case you hadn't taken your dose yet...


    Please Swayze, dis-regard my previous post...

    I would love to be "partners" with you in this, but not like that lol


    -Buck
    LOL...dude, you know what... :/ ... I already took my dose. I took it right after I typed that to you. I can guarantee you however, if I had read your reply before I dosed...I wouldn't have dosed. I just wasn't thinking of it like that...like an experiment, or a study...two different style kicks to compare at the same time. Geez, man. Now, i'm irritated that I dosed so hastily. Now that I think about it, it woulda been pretty cool. *sighs* Oh, well. I'm only a day behind you. It shouldn't make that much of a difference. I'll tell ya something tho...I messed up. Yesterday, I took .75mg...I was going to take .5 today, and .5 tomorrow, then I would have been out. No...what did I do? I took both of my .5mg pieces earlier, because I wanted to get this thing started. Some of the symptoms I had earlier are gone, but I still don't feel very well. I'm out, bro. I can't dose again even if my life depended on it. So, i'm in it now, buck! You can't make a left turn on me! I'm coming up on ya, buddy, and i'm coming fast! We're in the s**t pot now! LOL! WOOOO!!

    It's going to be really hard, bro. We can do it though. We HAVE to. Failure isn't even an option...we don't have that option. Period. It's not a matter of IF we're going to be able to make it up that hill, but HOW LONG it will take us to climb to the top of it. BAM! BUCK BUCK BOOOM!!

    This is just a suggestion...if you aren't going to get rid of your stash, then you should ATLEAST put it ALL somewhere that's hard to get to...like keep it in a storage facility, or at a friends house, or a secret location somewhere that is NOT work, and NOT home. You can put it in something, and disguise it...hide it. That way, if you get tempted, the drive and the effort you have to go thru to get it in your hands might be enough to make you think twice, or give you time to build your mental strength back up before you can get to it. Just a suggestion.

    I gotta take a call. I'll be making a post on my own thread in a bit. Again...CONGRATS on the jump, bro! I'll catch up with ya in a bit.

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    • Originally posted by Buckeye13 View Post
      24 hours in the books!!!
      Hadnt been on much last few days Buck was out of town a couple days and just read this. Congrads to you my friend. Your positive attitude thru all of this was great. Hope your symptoms are minimal and my best wishes to you

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      • Originally posted by EgoPunch View Post
        This is just a suggestion...if you aren't going to get rid of your stash, then you should ATLEAST put it ALL somewhere that's hard to get to...like keep it in a storage facility, or at a friends house, or a secret location somewhere that is NOT work, and NOT home. You can put it in something, and disguise it...hide it. That way, if you get tempted, the drive and the effort you have to go thru to get it in your hands might be enough to make you think twice, or give you time to build your mental strength back up before you can get to it. Just a suggestion.
        I already did something like that last night...

        I put it in a locked drawar in a tool box out in my de-tatched garage...

        On top of the Subs, I covered them up completely with an envelope (that's all I had out there) that says "Don't do it bro"

        That way, if I'm ever tempted to grab some, and I know I won't be, I will see that note to myself and it will remind me of what I went through during these first days clean, and how it's not even worth it anyways...

        I'm going to get rid of ALL of it next week. I called one of my old friends from HS that I don't talk to much but I knew he takes Subs because he hooked me up a few times when I was hurting, and I told him he can have them all for $7 each...

        I thought I had about 800-900mgs left, but it was actually closer to 450mgs..

        Still alot I know, but that would only get me through about 11 days a few months ago..

        I gotta customer. Gotta run..

        Be back in a few...

        -Buck
        Last edited by Anonymous; 01-12-2013, 09:51 AM.

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        • Hiding them in the Ol "Shed" ey? LOL.....Good one Buck! I have a "Shed" of my own out back, next to my Barn, all padlocked up, and I shudder to think what I have stashed in there LOL.....God I havent gone "Rootin Around" in that shed for YEARS! LOL.....
          Sorry I havent been posting like I usually do Bro....just been really busy at my Shop...its been unusually Busy after the Holidays for some reason....I noticed you said "Gotta go, have a Customer" you in Retail sales as well??? If so, aint it a ??????? LOL....Ive had my Cigar shop for going on 10 years now after retiring from Civil Engineering, and I sure thought "WOW, this is GREAT" ....well, my tune has SURE changed after 10 years! I HATE it now....mostly due to the People....My GOD man, seems like 75% of my Customers are IDIOTS...LOL....Its ALWAYS something ya know....Guess Im just burnt out Dude....ready for a change...

          Anyway.....Im really glad your doing good man! You hang in there....you, Ego, Big Al, and a few others are a Team! We gotta stick together Bro!!!!!
          Hang Tough and have a GREAT day!!!
          Your Ol Pal Harry

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          • Originally posted by HarrySmooth View Post
            Sorry I havent been posting like I usually do Bro....just been really busy at my Shop...its been unusually Busy after the Holidays for some reason....I noticed you said "Gotta go, have a Customer" you in Retail sales as well??? If so, aint it a ??????? LOL....Ive had my Cigar shop for going on 10 years now after retiring from Civil Engineering, and I sure thought "WOW, this is GREAT" ....well, my tune has SURE changed after 10 years! I HATE it now....mostly due to the People....My GOD man, seems like 75% of my Customers are IDIOTS...LOL....Its ALWAYS something ya know....Guess Im just burnt out Dude....ready for a change...
            Customers are idiots! That's why we are the "professionals" hah..

            Yeah I run a outdoor power equip business. My dad owns it but he's very hands-off after the 39 years he's put in this place. Talk about being burnt out!

            We are the biggest Stihl dealer in Ohio and all of BigTen country (Mid-West) and we also sell Toro Zero-Turns and tractors...

            This is a slow time of year in the winter so it's perfect for detoxing...

            When I feel myself getting frustrated at a worker or customer I've just been keeping my mouth shut throughout this whole process. I've actually felt like I've been a nicer person to be around throughout this so far except for in the beginning when I dropped to 4mgs way too soon and got most of my detox out of the way...

            Anyways, after 1:30 this afternoon I'll be off work until 8:30 Tuesday morning. That will be DAY 5!

            It's 65* here in Ohio so when I get out of here I'm going to go do something outside because after tomorrow, it's back to the 30*s for the rest of January....

            Stay thirsty my friends...

            -Buckinclean

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            • You doing alright, bro? I've been reading your posts, and the symptoms you outlined on my thread. It sux, but it's no severed leg, right? lol. That's what I keep telling myself anyway. Stay with it, man. peace

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              • Hey, Buck!
                Hope you're doing well. I especially hope that the majority of symptoms will come on less strongly thanks to the taper you did. I firmly believe jumping off a lower dose shaves plenty off recovery time, so hang tight and know that once you cross the peak it only gets better and better.
                Time to get back to who you really are, Buck :-)
                Good on ya.

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                • Originally posted by winged eagle View Post
                  Hey, Buck!
                  Hope you're doing well. I especially hope that the majority of symptoms will come on less strongly thanks to the taper you did. I firmly believe jumping off a lower dose shaves plenty off recovery time, so hang tight and know that once you cross the peak it only gets better and better.
                  Time to get back to who you really are, Buck :-)
                  Good on ya.
                  Yoyoyo Yoyo...

                  Day 5 and feeling friggin great...

                  I'll hop back on here in a minute and elaborate...

                  -Buck

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                  • Day 5 and feeling great im glad to read that Buck. Ive been wondering the last couple days about you and it made me really feel happy for you to read your good. Your determination and positive attitude has been great thru your journey and its paying big dividends now. Catch you later Buck.
                    Alex

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                    • Originally posted by alexnt View Post
                      Day 5 and feeling great im glad to read that Buck. Ive been wondering the last couple days about you and it made me really feel happy for you to read your good. Your determination and positive attitude has been great thru your journey and its paying big dividends now. Catch you later Buck.
                      Alex
                      Thanks al...

                      I was on here a lot yesterday but I had trouble finding motivation to post...

                      DAY 6 TODAY and all is well...

                      I can't believe how true it is about how the love of music comes back when you get clean. The best part of my days now are driving around on my lunch break jamming to some of my CDs from about 5-10 years ago. It brings back so many memories and it's also so good to hear the ol' tunes that I used to love so much. I listen to everything from country, to rap, to my man Johnny Cash...

                      Grew up a country boy, but I've always loved most genres of music...

                      It feels so good to be back...

                      -Buck

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                      • Buck,
                        does that make 3 kids?
                        You're getting outnumbered!

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                        • Originally posted by shadowwally View Post
                          Buck,
                          does that make 3 kids?
                          You're getting outnumbered!
                          Oh yeah...Outnumbered...Can't wait!

                          I had to talk my wife into having the 3rd one...

                          The best part of my life is being a father. I literally spend every non-work and sleep moment either playing with them, reading to them, feeding them, or watching Disney with them. When one wakes up in the middle of the night, it's daddy going in and getting them (in fairness to my wife, she has basically been pregnant for 3 years) and I put them back to sleep. I'm also the best diaper changer this side of the Mississippi. They. Are. My. Life.

                          Am I crazy for wanting a 3rd before my 1st turns 3? Or was it the drugs?

                          I kid. I kid.

                          -Buck

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                          • congrats!
                            you are outnumbered but what fun!
                            and a great dad to boot

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                            • So, Valedictorian of Class of 2013 :-)
                              I see you're doing well. Actually, it appears you're doing incredibly well, and I can't tell you how good it feels to read that. Another success story. And it wasn't an easy one, either. Six years on sub, fast taper with huge drops... You did awesome :-D
                              Congrats on your new life, congrats on the soon-to-arrive baby, and congrats on triumphing over your addiction and reclaiming yourself.
                              And it only gets better :-D

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                              • Originally posted by winged eagle View Post
                                So, Valedictorian of Class of 2013 :-)
                                I see you're doing well. Actually, it appears you're doing incredibly well, and I can't tell you how good it feels to read that. Another success story. And it wasn't an easy one, either. Six years on sub, fast taper with huge drops... You did awesome :-D
                                Congrats on your new life, congrats on the soon-to-arrive baby, and congrats on triumphing over your addiction and reclaiming yourself.
                                And it only gets better :-D

                                Thanks so much for the kind words....

                                One word of mine...Determination...Nothing was going to stop me from this. Nothing.

                                I had my worst WDs at the beginning of the taper when I went from 32mgs/day to 4mgs/day. I wouldn't change that for anything because I prepared my body quickly for what was to come. Discomfort isn't agony. Cronic Sub use is agony..

                                As I've stated before, I did have a few things working in my favor...

                                I have no body pain
                                I had never snorted anything or used a needle
                                I had never taken any substance more hardcore than Oxy's, and that was only on a rare occasion
                                I'm 30, and healthy
                                And most importantly, I was READY this time


                                I know those things aren't a huge deal, but it could've been worse for me, and I realize that...
                                _______________________________


                                Another quick tidbit that I'm proud to share...

                                I met with an old buddy of mine that is a Sub user. He has quit a few times before but has went back to the dark side (I never will)...

                                Anyways, I gave him EVERYTHING that I had. Instead of flushing it down the toilet, I gave it to him. About 20 mins later he called me and couldn't believe how organized the stuff I gave him was. There were little 1" bags (Like zip-lock crack bags) that were labeled at incriments of .75mgs, .50mgs, .25mgs, .125mgs...

                                Each bag still had atleast 5, and up to 12 or so pieces in each of them from when I made a drop and moved on to the next dose....Plus there was about 30-40 8mg strips, and a couple 2mg strips...

                                He told me that he's amazed at how an addict could muscle up the mental and physical strength to do what I did and stick to it to the end. I said to him "Drugs.com dawg. Click on the Forums and get yourself clean"

                                He told me he's going to log on when he gets back to work and start a taper plan. If you're reading this John, you are a man of your word. If not, enjoy my former Subs...


                                -Buck

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